LostRobot

My music can be found here: https://soundcloud.com/lostrobotmusic

A small portion of my numberless free software projects are shown here: https://www.youtube.com/@lostrobotmusic

Making free things for people becomes extremely difficult after you're dead, and that's the only reason I'm asking for any money at all.

I was born and raised in an extremist cult since birth, and had to flee in April of 2022, leaving almost everything I had behind. Despite my best efforts, I'm entirely unemployable due to Crohn's disease, severe autism I was born with, and C-PTSD from two decades of abuse, combined with the fact that I had an extremely sheltered childhood to prevent me from finding the truth about the dangerous cult I was being raised in. I'm not even able to drive because of my disabilities, which is only slightly better than house arrest when you're living in America's outer suburbs.

The reason I haven't been asking for money for all these years is because a friend I interacted with daily kept promising me housing. After pushing things back repeatedly for over three years, just one month before the move-in date they scheduled, they messaged without any prior warning or cited reason whatsoever that they're screwing me over and explicitly don't care that doing this is effectively murder, by their own admission.

So now I'm forced to somehow pull in enough money every month to afford rent, while having already structured and planned my entire life around the false idea that I'd actually be able to get some help in the future. Having been unable to leave this room, I've had almost exactly 0 interaction with other human beings for over three years now, immediately following me already being forced to lose contact with every person I've ever known in my life due to leaving the aforementioned cult.

In short, I have literally nothing, I'm stranded and alone, and there's no longer any evidence that any of that will ever change for the entire rest of my life.

But! I'm still making free software for 16+ hours every day, at least. I'm so severely mentally ill that I can't really stop either, even if it kills me.

Everything I make will always be free, for everybody, no exceptions. So, if you're able and willing to donate, you're making this software accessible not only to you, but to everybody on the entire planet, forever. And, the longer I can be kept alive, the more of this there will be.

The only reason Septabee can exist at all is due to the boundless generosity of patrons helping to cover the expenses that I can't cover on my own. This program would not have been possible without their help, so they deserve every shoutout that can possibly be given to them.

Here's a full breakdown of my monthly expenses:

Food + medical necessities - $400

Phone Bill - $30

Website - $7

That's it. That's the whole thing. I'm even wearing the same four sets of clothes I had a decade ago (they are completely falling apart and it's slightly hilarious). Reducing my expenses further would be nearly impossible.

But, by the end of the year, I need to add:

Rent + utilities - $???

Once again, that's it. But where I'm at, even getting a bathroom-sized apartment for under $900 per month appears hilariously unrealistic. Unfortunately, unlike most other expenses, rent isn't something you can cut down on. If I could purchase a 1/4-sized apartment for 1/4 of the rent cost, I absolutely would, but unfortunately it can't happen.

So, as a person creating the equivalent of several hundreds of multi-hundred-dollar VSTs to everybody on the planet for free, I unfortunately need to ask for the financial equivalent of five Serum copies per month and will feel really bad about it for some reason.

The person who's been letting me live here for free has very generously and empathetically extended the time I'm allowed to live here until the end of 2026. I've already been living here for two years longer than I ever intended (for the aforementioned reasons I had no control over) and absolutely will be moving out on time. But I unfortunately need enough money by that time to be able to actually have a place to move to.

And I'm REALLY REALLY BAD at asking for money, as everybody who knows me is already fully aware of, so please share this around... I won't be sharing it around nearly as much as I should myself. I'm enormously grateful for any help you can provide, and every penny of it will be spent towards making the world a better place for musicians everywhere.